Cancer Picked the Wrong Butt

After complaining to our friend, Jackie, at 12:45 p.m. about feeling like we were being put off regarding Bear's IV chemo port placement, we are now set for launch in less than a week! THAT IS CRAZY!!! With the holidays, they had said it would be "several weeks" after finishing oral chemo, which was frustrating. Oral chemo ends December 5 and having to wait till January felt scary. We are ECSTATIC it has been moved up!  The downside is that Mallory and Elisabeth will be arriving in the wee hours of the morning the port goes in. I feel guilty because we miss them sooooo much, their time here is so short, and this will take time away from them. But it just doesn't make sense to put it off literally more than a month. Bear says he is a trooper and will bounce right back to hang with us. Fingers crossed he's right!!! Anxiety has already kicked in about all that needs to be done before then. The house is a mess, the yard is a wreck, everyone is coming into town next we...

I feel like half of my journal entry titles are along the lines of: "Time flies!" "Haven't written in a while!" "Where does the time go?!"  But truly! I think of journaling probably every day, but am always so busy and distracted. Then, when I come here to post and see the last entry was October 25th... That's almost three weeks ago!!! What in the WHAT?!  I am having a heavy cancer day today. I'm not sure I can adequately articulate why or if I even actually KNOW why... We are SO fortunate Bear has not yet experienced any side effects AT ALL! Last week, the doctors were literally SHOCKED he was still working. Dr. Lin even fake kind of falling/jumping out of his chair towards us, so you can imagine the reaction a week later! We know chemo and radiation can both take some time to build up, but to be on day 13 of treatment without even the slightest twinge of pain or nausea or irritation is nothing short of a miracle, especially with his DPD diagn...